life rules
- you are never as awkward as you think you are
- you are never as annoying as you think you are
- you are never as boring as you think you are
- your compliments are never as creepy as you think they are
- you are way more wanted than you give yourself credit for
- chin up, dude
things to believe in
-To have the desirable thigh gap - and to feeling that your muscles can’t handle it, when you are trying to get to the top of those stairs
-People won’t call you “chubby” anymore - of course, they will call you “stupid, anorexic bitch” instead
-To feel better about yourself - hmm… if that means hating yourself more than ever - yes, I can promise you the overwhelming feeling of self hatered
-So you’ll finally be the skinniest friend - you will be “the skinniest”, but this sicknes will lead you to losing all of your friends
-To be able to wear anything - actually, no. You will feel too insecure to wear anything that isn’t baggy and that doesn’t cover your body
-To feel in control - nope. You will feel in control at the very beginning, but then you will feel SO OUT OF CONTROL, you will feel like something is controlling you. And you will become a control freak.
- To look frail enough to need protection - yes. And to see everyone in pain because you’re hurting yourself and they can’t save you from your self destruction.
- To feel my bones - you will feel them, oh yeah! Your spine will hurt and you will get bruises on your back from sitting on a wooden chair or even from sleeping on your back. And you will feel your bones when you sit down, and after a while your legs will get numb, because of failing circulation
- To have people think I’m younger than I am - yes, they will thing you are a kid with a face of someone older than you actually are, because your skin will lose flexibility
- To not be ashamed of eating - oh, I can promise you, you will be MORE ashamed than ever!
- To look cute in a sweatshirt and oversize clothes - you won’t look cute, you will look sick
- To have people compliment me - maybe at first, but then they will tell you that you look sick, that you look ugly and anorexic.
- To have my boyfriend carry me on his shoulders at concerts- hahaha!!! You will be TOO WEAK to go to concerts
- To weigh less than those celebrities I was so jealous of! - and to die early like some of them
- To stop people from pinching my stomach! - they will be too afraid to touch you. But you will izolate yourself, so it won’t make any difference
- To be the best me I can be - if “best” means “sick and dying and weak” than you are right
- To not feel like a freak - to feel like you are alone and like you don’t fit in instead
- To wear skirts and crop-tops - NOPE. You will feel too cold even at the hottest days of summer, so you won’t get a chance to wear them
AND SOME REASONS FROM ME:
-To have thin, falling out hair and brittle, blue nails, and after a few months being partially bald
-To have extremly dry skin
-To get bruised so easily that you won’t even realise when you got them
-To have muscles that hurt when you move
-To get dizzy after standing up or even running to the bus
-To faint at the public places and to hear people saying that you must be on drugs
-To get pannic attacks when you go to the grocery store
-To be obsessed about your weight
-TO DIE
